Tag: Insomnia

Some days your body simply tells you it’s had enough.

Yesterday was one of those days.

After only getting a few hours of sleep the night before because of my ongoing battle with insomnia, I was completely exhausted. Around 6:30 in the evening, I laid down in bed to watch a little television.

The next thing I knew, I had slept for more than eight hours.

I honestly can’t remember the last time I slept that long.

Lately, a “good night’s sleep” has felt like something other people get to enjoy. Eight uninterrupted hours has become so rare that waking up this morning actually felt different. I felt refreshed. It’s amazing how something most people take for granted can feel like such a gift when you’ve been struggling with insomnia.

My morning health check was encouraging. Everything looked good, and that’s always a reassuring way to start the day.

Unfortunately, my right hip continues to remind me that not everything is moving in the right direction.

The pain has been intense since yesterday afternoon. While medication would probably take the edge off, it comes with another problem—constipation. Like so many things that come with chronic illness, it often feels like solving one problem creates another. For now, I’m going to try and manage the pain without taking anything.

At least today I can get comfortable in my recliner. Yesterday, even that seemed impossible.

Living with chronic illness has taught me that progress isn’t always measured in big milestones.

Sometimes it’s measured by a good night’s sleep.

Sometimes it’s simply finding a comfortable place to sit.

And sometimes, it’s waking up feeling just a little more refreshed than you did the day before.

Today wasn’t perfect.

But today was better.

I’ll gladly take that as a small victory.

This morning started on a positive note. My daily health checks all looked good, and by later this morning I was down a few more ounces. It’s not a huge change, but every ounce is another step toward my weight-loss goal, and I’ll take every victory I can get.

Unfortunately, the rest of the day has been much more difficult.

Since yesterday afternoon, I’ve been dealing with severe pain in my right hip. The pain shoots all the way down my right thigh, making it nearly impossible to get comfortable. Even my recliner—usually the one place where I can find some relief—hasn’t helped. No matter how I sit or shift, the pain just won’t let up.

I finally gave up and went to bed early last night, hoping sleep would help. Instead, I woke up at 12:30 a.m. and never made it back to sleep. Another night of insomnia.

The combination of chronic pain and sleepless nights is exhausting. When your body hurts and your mind won’t let you rest, it wears on you physically and emotionally. You begin to wonder how much longer you can keep going like this.

I’m hoping this stretch of insomnia ends soon because it’s becoming just as draining as the health issues themselves. For now, I’ll focus on the one positive from today—the scale moved in the right direction. Sometimes that’s enough to remind me that even when everything else feels like it’s working against me, there is still progress being made.